"i have nature and art and poetry, and if that isn't enough, what is?"

a 25 year old high school dropout who's only hope for the future is to be able to travel the world


on february 9th, i stepped out of my comfort zone and approached him. i don't know what drove me to do it, i just knew i had to talk to him. it started easy and laidback. i wasn't really expecting anything to happen between us, since i was still crushing on jonas. but he was fun and i didn't feel anxious talking to him....

my sister went upstairs to get dressed, and for the first time in years, I started crying. I felt scared and hopeless and overwhelmed, everything I didn't want to feel for so long. I shut down after crying for about 30 seconds.

i met him in january, the 27th to be exact. let's call him jonas. he was pretty much everything my teenage self would be afraid of — he was loud, confident, unfiltered and flirty. we looked in each other's eyes, and there was something special there. it was a mutual attraction.

so we've officially made it to 2/3 of the trip. it feels surreal sometimes, like everything happening is a movie I'm watching. anyway, here are some highlights: - split my pants in two during a panick attack while rock climbing (my personal favorite)- pressed charges for barrel dogs (very out of comfort, but was really proud!)- hitchhiked...

(i didnt edit this, and you can tell lol. but i just wanted to write down the thoughts I've been having these past weeks like they came.)

 Painting: Sterrennacht, Vincent van Gogh https://www/vangoghmuseum.nl/nl<h1>

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