Como te va, mi amor?

I miss you. I miss our hour long conversations. I miss hearing your laugh. I miss your bunny teeth. I miss your eyes. I miss you complimenting me til I was speechless and blushing. I miss you.

I hope you're okay. You've never been this low. I was where you are right now, 10 years ago. I know how you feel. I know you're spiraling, wanting to give up. I'm scared and worried because I know how you feel. I hope you're okay. 

I still listen to the songs you told me reminded me of you. I put them in a playlist. I play them on loop when I miss you. Do you still think of me when you listen to that song? Do you still feel the same when you listen to that song? I always tear up when I hear them, but I still listen to the songs you told me reminded me of you. 

Do you think I've forgotten you? Do you think there's a guy who can make me feel like you did? Like you still do. I'm ashamed to say sometimes I let guys flirt with me, hear them say that'd move mountains for me. Not because it means anything to me, but because I wish it was you instead. I can't have a conversation without you crossing my mind. Do you think I've forgotten you? 

I'm just still so in love with you. I don't know if you are. I'm sure you still care, but do you still love me? I know it's selfish. I know you have bigger problems than relationships right now, but I can't help but wanna ask. I'm just still so in love with you. 

But i want you to be happy. So if you find someone else, a girl who can make you smile and laugh in times like this, don't let her go. It will break my heart, but I want you to be happy.